Weekly Update

When I started this blog I had really good intentions of writing every day... then I figured anyone who was actually reading this was probably going to get annoyed with my nattering on every day, so I going to stick with weekly... and it just happens to have fallen on a Monday again..
So yesterday was my hunkyhoney's birthday.. and I guess I felt domestic or something because I made 2 cakes (yes 2.. i love him).. and did dishes, and laundry, made him lunch and helped put together parts of the kids new play set.
and I wonder why I am tired today? Im telling you, its this prodcutive thing.
Even this morning I made rice krispie treats, much to the delight of Mekennah.. and mini banana chocochip muffins.. and Ive kept the kitchen clean.. and despite the fact that there is a heavenly carrot cake with almond scented icing in the fridge, I ate a freaking salad for lunch.
Someone tell  me this is going to pay off cuz right now I am gonna throw the dadgum scale out the window.

2 weeks

sorry for the lack of updates....

I know its been 2 weeks but i just have lost steam.... and ive been in a royal funk.

anyway...
moving on.

5 days??

wow ok so it 5 days since I last posted.. How did that happen?????
I did plan on writing yesterday but Mekennah woke up at sick at 4am and it kept up all morning. Thankfully she is her sunny dramatic princessy self now.... Did I mention dramatic? Oi vey

I have been doing really food. I started It Works products.. We will see how well they work.

so the weigh in... im the same as last week... which is ok because i didn't eat well over the weekend. but I need to get my butt in gear or im never going to drop this weight.


Ok short update I know but im tired.

Thoughts on Failure

So what is failure anyway?

About 6 months ago I was getting really ticked off with myself. I just felt like I couldnt do things that others could do so easily... (ever see a heavy chick try to do "downward dog" stretch? yea that was me, and I gave up at some point)
I also need to admit that I have a repetitive motion injury in my lower back (the lowest vertebrae on the right side likes to slide out of place.. from years as a cashier/florist/GM staff.. and it hurts like a son-of-a-gun and I get to go see Carol who makes it better).. and there are just going to be times when my back goes "Nope dont want to play today thanks!".. I have limitations... but Im not going to let that stop me from getting this weight off.

Anyway.. where was I.... Failure.. right. One of my all time favorite movie quotes is from We Bought A Zoo... "Sometimes all you need is twenty seconds of insane courage. Just literally twenty seconds of just embarrassing bravery. And I promise you, something great will come of it."  Our trainer at the Y has always said to us "you can do anything for 20 seconds"... and this has always stuck with me.
Failure isnt not being able to do something... Its not trying at all. 
Last night I pushed myself to try. I figured what the heck.. if I couldnt do it at least I could say I tried. Which is a lot better then having to admit that I didnt bother. And I DID IT. 

Oh and for anyone who wants to try suspension training..... I have one word.. OUCH. 
Holy wow I am feeling muscles in my back/shoulders that I didnt know where there. And yep, there are a few things that I just can't do, YET. But darn it, I will keep trying. Because the real failure is to not try.

Ive always felt like a failure at weight loss. It didnt seem to matter what I tried.. Nothing worked. And when I did loose weight, it wasn't enough. One of my lower points was when we first bought our scale. I had gained 10 lbs from the last time i was weighed at the Dr's office just before we adopted Sheldon 2yrs ago... Who the heck gains weight working out twice a week??? Me! Cuz Im that special.
When I talked to Dr Dreamy about it, he told me to remember that healthy weight loss is not going to happen over night. I didn't get to this weight in a weekend.. So I am going to do it the right way. Get active, keep working out (Shari you ain't getting rid of me any time soon!!!!) and eating healthy. 

Alright well... thats it from me for the day... Im dealing with a goofy 3yr old who is exercising her right to refuse to do anything Mommy suggests. She declared she doesn't want to go to the park OR play outside. If she is like this at 3, the teen years are going to be so fun (<-- sarcastic)


 

Changes

So its been a week.. And I have to say things are going ok. I've been keeping track of everything I've been eating.. Including snacks... There have been a few "if I eat that I have to write it... do I really want it?".. It helps me not cheat. Also eating a lot more veggies and fruit.

I hit a low point this morning... I don't know what set it off but I felt like it would be better for everyone if I jut gave up... We would save money if I quit the gym... Nonsense like that..
(I was feeling defeated after my Monday evening classes and the mood stuck... Not fun)
It was not my finest couple of days...
But I went for a walk with the cutest kid on the planet and felt better by the time we got home.

Its supposed to be nice and warm tomorrow so I'm planning on washing all the bedding and opening up some windows.
Supper tonight is chicken in the slow cooker with Catalina dressing and cranberries, rice and salad or veggies.

Have a great afternoon!

The Big Weigh In!!

Oi vey its early!!

But it's a good day...
This morning I'm weighing in at 269.6lbs. Under 270!

Today I'm also starting my It Works products... Will go into more detail on that later... Right now mommy needs coffee.

Have a great day!!

Im here!!

I promise I didn't go away :-) :-)

So Saturday was a big day.. I was part of the Y's Sweat for Strong Kids fundraiser.. A totally great cause that I really believe in.. And it was pretty darn fun! It was a 45min spin class. Silly me I thought if I could ride a bike I could do a spin class. OMG the class was hard!!!! But I stuck it out and did not give up, just kept moving even when I couldn't do some of it. (I have strong legs but my core sucks.. Need to work on that big time)

I have been really good with my eating.
Did I mention the Noom app?? I love it! Keeps me honest... Because I know if I've eaten something I didn't put in and every time I look at it it mocks me.. Its like it knows..... (Not really but I know)

My goal this week is to cut back calories.
And to not die tomorrow night!

Its supposed to be lovely weather all weekend so I'm hoping to make at least 2 trips to the park with Mekennah.

Weighing in on Tuesday!!

Goal setting

I am so thankful my husband is on board with this!!
He has been so supportive!!
And he is willing to try what I cook.. He wants to make changes too!
Along with the weight loss I hope to totally change the way our family eats... Right now we eat way too much processed crap... And honestly I don't feel great after eating it.
My goal in the next month is to actually cook 5 nights out of 7.

I also learned something recently... And it made me sad.
I have a mega weakness for chips, or anything crunchy and salty...... Kettle Chips to be specific..... I had some yesterday and about 15min later I was really warm and tired.... I did some reading and found out that high sodium food causes high blood pressure... Signs of high blood pressure? Tired and hot flashes!!!  I tested this today and noticed it happened the same. So I must say goodbye to my yummy snacks... And will be buying more apples, carrots and healthy stuff. (No dips!)
I won't cut out chocolate completely... Because I do need a treat occasionally.
I haven't had a ginger ale in 5 days!

Well I have about 20 min before my KB class.
Wonder what Shari has planned tonight?

Welcome!

So I decided to start fresh anyway.. After all this is about a fresh start right?
Yes Im keeping the other blog as well, but this one is going to be solely focusing on the next 8 months....
Ready for a confession? 
(do I want to say this? No... but dang it.. I did say I was going to be honest........ )
Ok..
here goes...
total transparancy.....

My current weight is 274lbs..  (hanging head....)

Moving on now that we got that nasty little confession out of the way.....

My goal weight is 180lbs. 
Which means I need to loose 94lbs in 8 months. 
I know it can be done, Ive done it before... and I kept it off... Until I got married.
(thanks honey LOL)

I also want to thank everyone who has been so wonderful and encouraging! I know this is not going to be easy, and its going to take a lot of work. But Ive got motivation and determination.. and a bunch of people who will kick  my butt if I slack off =) 

Now you might be wondering what Im going to post about.. well.. I dont know yet. It might end up being a bunch of rambling and complaining... but I also plan on sharing recipes, apps, and products that I discover..  Im going to try to write every day... and once a week Im going to weigh in (goodness....  that darn accountability thing)

Byebye ugly pounds and inches!
Hello sexy momma! 

Today is a New Day!!!