Thoughts on Failure

So what is failure anyway?

About 6 months ago I was getting really ticked off with myself. I just felt like I couldnt do things that others could do so easily... (ever see a heavy chick try to do "downward dog" stretch? yea that was me, and I gave up at some point)
I also need to admit that I have a repetitive motion injury in my lower back (the lowest vertebrae on the right side likes to slide out of place.. from years as a cashier/florist/GM staff.. and it hurts like a son-of-a-gun and I get to go see Carol who makes it better).. and there are just going to be times when my back goes "Nope dont want to play today thanks!".. I have limitations... but Im not going to let that stop me from getting this weight off.

Anyway.. where was I.... Failure.. right. One of my all time favorite movie quotes is from We Bought A Zoo... "Sometimes all you need is twenty seconds of insane courage. Just literally twenty seconds of just embarrassing bravery. And I promise you, something great will come of it."  Our trainer at the Y has always said to us "you can do anything for 20 seconds"... and this has always stuck with me.
Failure isnt not being able to do something... Its not trying at all. 
Last night I pushed myself to try. I figured what the heck.. if I couldnt do it at least I could say I tried. Which is a lot better then having to admit that I didnt bother. And I DID IT. 

Oh and for anyone who wants to try suspension training..... I have one word.. OUCH. 
Holy wow I am feeling muscles in my back/shoulders that I didnt know where there. And yep, there are a few things that I just can't do, YET. But darn it, I will keep trying. Because the real failure is to not try.

Ive always felt like a failure at weight loss. It didnt seem to matter what I tried.. Nothing worked. And when I did loose weight, it wasn't enough. One of my lower points was when we first bought our scale. I had gained 10 lbs from the last time i was weighed at the Dr's office just before we adopted Sheldon 2yrs ago... Who the heck gains weight working out twice a week??? Me! Cuz Im that special.
When I talked to Dr Dreamy about it, he told me to remember that healthy weight loss is not going to happen over night. I didn't get to this weight in a weekend.. So I am going to do it the right way. Get active, keep working out (Shari you ain't getting rid of me any time soon!!!!) and eating healthy. 

Alright well... thats it from me for the day... Im dealing with a goofy 3yr old who is exercising her right to refuse to do anything Mommy suggests. She declared she doesn't want to go to the park OR play outside. If she is like this at 3, the teen years are going to be so fun (<-- sarcastic)