Ok so yesterday's post was not one of my finest... this mornining i went back over all my blogs and I realized what my problem is....
1 I lost sight of my goal. Yes my goal is to loose weight, but its also to eat better and feel healthier.
so confession
2... I have totally screwed up my eating. I have food ADD.. I cant stand the same stuff every day.. and I get sick of salads quickly.. but its the only way Im going to loose this dang weight.
SO starting today me and my big behind are back on track.
No More Excuses.
I wont say no more junk food, but I will stick to the portion size.
And I will welcome back fruit and salads.
I really really missed zumba/kb on monday. Im a bit of a bear without it.
Wednesday, May 21, 2014
Tuesday, May 20, 2014
Stuck
So i havent been writing because Im a little frustrated....
In the first couple of weeks of this I lost 10lbs. Now it seems that I am stuck at 269. Its pathetic... and concerning.......
I am staying under my reccomended calorie intake every day.
I am going to the gym 3hrs a week.
I am taking ItWorks products every day.
And Im still stuck.Its been 2 months since Ive started this.. I should be down 30lbs by now. *sigh*
I have been trying to tell myself the numbers on the scale dont matter... but right now they do. I want to get back in "One-derland"...
I have never had a problem loosing weight.. and keeping it off. I lost about 60lbs my year of college...
and now it just wont budge.....
I think its time to go see Dr Dreamy......
In the first couple of weeks of this I lost 10lbs. Now it seems that I am stuck at 269. Its pathetic... and concerning.......
I am staying under my reccomended calorie intake every day.
I am going to the gym 3hrs a week.
I am taking ItWorks products every day.
And Im still stuck.Its been 2 months since Ive started this.. I should be down 30lbs by now. *sigh*
I have been trying to tell myself the numbers on the scale dont matter... but right now they do. I want to get back in "One-derland"...
I have never had a problem loosing weight.. and keeping it off. I lost about 60lbs my year of college...
and now it just wont budge.....
I think its time to go see Dr Dreamy......
Sunday, May 4, 2014
*sigh*
I've been trying... Really..
Positive note I'm at 265.2lbs. Woohoo
Not so positive..... I'm crashing hard.
Everything is so messed up.
This is supposed to be a turning point... A good thing.... But its just falling apart.
One bad day goes to 2... And 3... And 4... And things get darker and I get crankier and loose my patience and motivation...
Mother's Day is next weekend.. And I just want to curl up and hide..
Prayers appreciated. I declare tomorrow to be my do-over day.
Tuesday, April 29, 2014
Weekly Update
When I started this blog I had really good intentions of writing every day... then I figured anyone who was actually reading this was probably going to get annoyed with my nattering on every day, so I going to stick with weekly... and it just happens to have fallen on a Monday again..
So yesterday was my hunkyhoney's birthday.. and I guess I felt domestic or something because I made 2 cakes (yes 2.. i love him).. and did dishes, and laundry, made him lunch and helped put together parts of the kids new play set.
and I wonder why I am tired today? Im telling you, its this prodcutive thing.
Even this morning I made rice krispie treats, much to the delight of Mekennah.. and mini banana chocochip muffins.. and Ive kept the kitchen clean.. and despite the fact that there is a heavenly carrot cake with almond scented icing in the fridge, I ate a freaking salad for lunch.
Someone tell me this is going to pay off cuz right now I am gonna throw the dadgum scale out the window.
So yesterday was my hunkyhoney's birthday.. and I guess I felt domestic or something because I made 2 cakes (yes 2.. i love him).. and did dishes, and laundry, made him lunch and helped put together parts of the kids new play set.
and I wonder why I am tired today? Im telling you, its this prodcutive thing.
Even this morning I made rice krispie treats, much to the delight of Mekennah.. and mini banana chocochip muffins.. and Ive kept the kitchen clean.. and despite the fact that there is a heavenly carrot cake with almond scented icing in the fridge, I ate a freaking salad for lunch.
Someone tell me this is going to pay off cuz right now I am gonna throw the dadgum scale out the window.
2 weeks
sorry for the lack of updates....
I know its been 2 weeks but i just have lost steam.... and ive been in a royal funk.
anyway...
moving on.
I know its been 2 weeks but i just have lost steam.... and ive been in a royal funk.
anyway...
moving on.
Tuesday, April 15, 2014
5 days??
wow ok so it 5 days since I last posted.. How did that happen?????
I did plan on writing yesterday but Mekennah woke up at sick at 4am and it kept up all morning. Thankfully she is her sunny dramatic princessy self now.... Did I mention dramatic? Oi vey
I have been doing really food. I started It Works products.. We will see how well they work.
so the weigh in... im the same as last week... which is ok because i didn't eat well over the weekend. but I need to get my butt in gear or im never going to drop this weight.
Ok short update I know but im tired.
I did plan on writing yesterday but Mekennah woke up at sick at 4am and it kept up all morning. Thankfully she is her sunny dramatic princessy self now.... Did I mention dramatic? Oi vey
I have been doing really food. I started It Works products.. We will see how well they work.
so the weigh in... im the same as last week... which is ok because i didn't eat well over the weekend. but I need to get my butt in gear or im never going to drop this weight.
Ok short update I know but im tired.
Thursday, April 10, 2014
Thoughts on Failure
So what is failure anyway?
About 6 months ago I was getting really ticked off with myself. I just felt like I couldnt do things that others could do so easily... (ever see a heavy chick try to do "downward dog" stretch? yea that was me, and I gave up at some point)
I also need to admit that I have a repetitive motion injury in my lower back (the lowest vertebrae on the right side likes to slide out of place.. from years as a cashier/florist/GM staff.. and it hurts like a son-of-a-gun and I get to go see Carol who makes it better).. and there are just going to be times when my back goes "Nope dont want to play today thanks!".. I have limitations... but Im not going to let that stop me from getting this weight off.
Anyway.. where was I.... Failure.. right. One of my all time favorite movie quotes is from We Bought A Zoo... "Sometimes all you need is twenty seconds of insane courage. Just literally twenty seconds of just embarrassing bravery. And I promise you, something great will come of it." Our trainer at the Y has always said to us "you can do anything for 20 seconds"... and this has always stuck with me.
Failure isnt not being able to do something... Its not trying at all.
Last night I pushed myself to try. I figured what the heck.. if I couldnt do it at least I could say I tried. Which is a lot better then having to admit that I didnt bother. And I DID IT.
Oh and for anyone who wants to try suspension training..... I have one word.. OUCH.
Holy wow I am feeling muscles in my back/shoulders that I didnt know where there. And yep, there are a few things that I just can't do, YET. But darn it, I will keep trying. Because the real failure is to not try.
Ive always felt like a failure at weight loss. It didnt seem to matter what I tried.. Nothing worked. And when I did loose weight, it wasn't enough. One of my lower points was when we first bought our scale. I had gained 10 lbs from the last time i was weighed at the Dr's office just before we adopted Sheldon 2yrs ago... Who the heck gains weight working out twice a week??? Me! Cuz Im that special.
When I talked to Dr Dreamy about it, he told me to remember that healthy weight loss is not going to happen over night. I didn't get to this weight in a weekend.. So I am going to do it the right way. Get active, keep working out (Shari you ain't getting rid of me any time soon!!!!) and eating healthy.
Alright well... thats it from me for the day... Im dealing with a goofy 3yr old who is exercising her right to refuse to do anything Mommy suggests. She declared she doesn't want to go to the park OR play outside. If she is like this at 3, the teen years are going to be so fun (<-- sarcastic)
About 6 months ago I was getting really ticked off with myself. I just felt like I couldnt do things that others could do so easily... (ever see a heavy chick try to do "downward dog" stretch? yea that was me, and I gave up at some point)
I also need to admit that I have a repetitive motion injury in my lower back (the lowest vertebrae on the right side likes to slide out of place.. from years as a cashier/florist/GM staff.. and it hurts like a son-of-a-gun and I get to go see Carol who makes it better).. and there are just going to be times when my back goes "Nope dont want to play today thanks!".. I have limitations... but Im not going to let that stop me from getting this weight off.
Anyway.. where was I.... Failure.. right. One of my all time favorite movie quotes is from We Bought A Zoo... "Sometimes all you need is twenty seconds of insane courage. Just literally twenty seconds of just embarrassing bravery. And I promise you, something great will come of it." Our trainer at the Y has always said to us "you can do anything for 20 seconds"... and this has always stuck with me.
Failure isnt not being able to do something... Its not trying at all.
Last night I pushed myself to try. I figured what the heck.. if I couldnt do it at least I could say I tried. Which is a lot better then having to admit that I didnt bother. And I DID IT.
Oh and for anyone who wants to try suspension training..... I have one word.. OUCH.
Holy wow I am feeling muscles in my back/shoulders that I didnt know where there. And yep, there are a few things that I just can't do, YET. But darn it, I will keep trying. Because the real failure is to not try.
Ive always felt like a failure at weight loss. It didnt seem to matter what I tried.. Nothing worked. And when I did loose weight, it wasn't enough. One of my lower points was when we first bought our scale. I had gained 10 lbs from the last time i was weighed at the Dr's office just before we adopted Sheldon 2yrs ago... Who the heck gains weight working out twice a week??? Me! Cuz Im that special.
When I talked to Dr Dreamy about it, he told me to remember that healthy weight loss is not going to happen over night. I didn't get to this weight in a weekend.. So I am going to do it the right way. Get active, keep working out (Shari you ain't getting rid of me any time soon!!!!) and eating healthy.
Alright well... thats it from me for the day... Im dealing with a goofy 3yr old who is exercising her right to refuse to do anything Mommy suggests. She declared she doesn't want to go to the park OR play outside. If she is like this at 3, the teen years are going to be so fun (<-- sarcastic)
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